I just don't have the energy to explain the crazy week ... but just dealing with so much with xander. I am starting to have panic attacks. I am scared to pick him up in the morning. What will his mood be? Will he be angry? Will he be sad and moody? Will he be pretending again and I then I get to wonder what will happen at school.
I am anxious all day. Especially on days i am not home as I am farther away. The 211 bus ride downtown this week was major panic attack city.
Will something happen? Will it be worse? Should I be sending him to school? Is it really helping him get over his issues or is it making them worse? Does he feel I am abandoning him there? Does he know how much I love him?
So off to get ready to take xander to his psychiatrist appointment.
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