To feel or not to feel that is the question

I have come to notice, from people's reactions to my stating how "I have been feeling more as of late so i guess i am doing better" that this might be a strange thing to say. I, in the interest, of continuing to progress, which is helped by being open and honest, have decided to try my best to not internalize this as being that I am strange or that I shouldn't be honest in this way or that this barometer is not accurate in showing that I am indeed doing better (Of course I might be totally wrong in assessing this has been people's reaction). All these things are true. It might also be true that not feeling is strange as well. That's ok. I guess it is strange not to feel. I mean that's why we are alive right? But to me it has been very strange to feel in the last few months. And most of the time it's been scary, terrifying, anxiety provoking, exhausting and painful.

• Scary: Woah! If it's this bad now, and i have say another 50-60 years of this how can I deal?? Every new feeling brings new what ifs. Yikes what will i feel tomorrow? Of course the bad feelings come first. for me.
• Terrifying: Panic attacks!
• Anxiety provoking: Every (non-threatening, non-sexual) touch from my partner now brings anxiety. What is all the fuss about feeling? So far it sucks!
• Painful: Now that i feel more my back aches, I am dizzy, short of breath, more headaches and my teeth hurt. All the tension and anxiety manifest now within my body. 

more to come in terms of why these feelings are produced, how they manifest and what I am trying to do about them. Also should speak to how and why I wasn't feeling sufficiently in the past.