So here we are in a new year. Hello 2011, nice to meet you! So Eric goes back to work Monday morning after a week off, so a week together most of the time after the crazy of Christmas which included 4 xmas dinners and a holiday party. This could break the most stable of relationships/people but i think we did ok. Not great but i'll take ok. I was forced to slow down (after the crazy part ended monday morning) which was good and bad. Good cause that is one of my goals in group; to slow down, feel more, be more comfortable being present in my own life. Bad cause well I am not there yet.
I have yet to say hey look at that really cool girl Melissa in there i want to hang with her! Nope! That hasn't happened yet. But that's ok I am just getting to know her and it takes time to develop new relationships. I've heard she can be quite moody at times and has difficulty with interpersonal relationships. I should be careful! I hear though she is working on things. She is in this new group therapy (dialectical, behavioral therapy) designed to help her work on very specific life skills. She appears to be working hard at that. I've noticed she spends a lot of time observing her feelings, actions and the world and people around her. She still gets upset quickly but she'll notice it more often then not now and will calm down quicker. She is noticing her triggers and will anticipate them occasionally. She has been very brave, as she has become more present in her life she has begun to feel more things that are not much fun. This would make me want to hide but she keeps going. Sure she has her sad, hide under the covers, days but overall she is spending more time with people who matter to her. I just hope I can be one of them soon.
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