After my (medical) doctor allowed an increase in my dose to 225mg (and I can go up to 300mg if need be) this week i have felt more normal than in a long time! I can smile and have some motivational energy. I can feel hard feelings and think important, healing thoughts, that might be hard to deal with but I can try because i know I can handle them. I can enjoy my son and nephew. I can concentrate enough to read. I can read for pleasure and mean those words.
Then I wonder wonder when will this end? When will the new dose no longer work as well as it does now? When will I descend inevitably back into the abyss?
Until then I will continue to enjoy, enjoying :)
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